Your Heaven is Trying Everything to Keep Me Down

Did you ever feel as thought the whole universe was conspiring against you? I am having one of those weeks. Unfortunately the thing it is about is something I am not will to put on a blog, but I will say that its fucking aggravating! Every time the universe tells me I can't do something I say "Fuck off universe! This is my life, and I do what I want" and then I fight it. I am determined to have my life go the way I intend it to. There is however a small problem. There is a small part of me that thinks that "the universe" is God trying to tell me what he wants, or doesn't want for my life. I really don't want to fight God, cause he will win for sure. I am struggling to find the difference between fighting for what I want, and where my life seems to want to go. For the time being, I am resolved to pray about it and continue fighting for myself and what I want.