How Low Can You Go: The Limbo

Since my move to Denver, there has been a very constant question at the back of my mind. I have managed to answer this question many different ways in the past few months. Some days I feel so certain of the answer, and others, I it seems to evade me like the warm touch of the sun on a cold winters evening. I am well aware that God wanted me to move to Denver, but the question of whether I will be a permanent citizen of Denver bugs me nonetheless.I seem to be stuck in a Residential Limbo of sorts. I do believe that I am here, right now, for a reason, and that it is where I am supposed to be out off all the places in the world. This in itself is very reassuring, but I still wonder frequently if my stay here will last for another couple months, years, or some unknown time for reasons that I cannot even fathom. Not knowing the answer would be that bad if EVERYONE didn't seem to want to know the answer. Family, friends, the federal and state governments, the church, Whitworth University, and all the boxes of stuff still sitting in my room all deserve to know the answer, but how to I answer such a question. I myself cannot even make up my mind on what I want to happen in the future. I managed to Move to Denver, buy a car, and get Denver plates, sign a lease on a house, and get a Job.... but at the same time I kept my Washington Drivers license, got a more expensive gym membership for the soul purpose of using it at gyms in more than one state, and keep telling my friends and family "I will see you soon!" when I talk to them. There is definitely a part of me that wishes to return to Washington and resume my safe and secure life there with all my friends in a comfortable and familiar surrounding. I do however feel like doing this right now would be cheating Life of the chance to teach me many great and needed things. I do know that at some point, when I have the money and the time away from work, I will come and visit all of the awesome people I am missing right now, both friends and family, but I have to be honest with myself in saying that I really don't know when that is going to be. I have to keep my faith in God and remember that he brought me to Denver for a reason, and when that is finished or He needs me somewhere else, then I will feel his a hand on my back pushing me onward. Until then, I have decided to answer my question with the following statement. I am a citizen of Denver Colorado and I have no idea when I will be leaving. Th-th-th-thats all folks!

The show must go on!

I have been in Denver for just over 3 months now and I just opened my second show at Curious Theatre. This show, unlike the last one, is kinda depressing and is just a sad play overall. I still think its a good one, but just not the happy type. I had to pull a lot of long hours to get this show open, as my boss was in Colorado Springs for a few days moving our last show, so I had to run load in myself for this one. Load in went well, but once we got into tech our director and some designers made life miserable for me, in the sense that they were never happy with anything we did and I had to redo a lot of stuff. Guy and I pulled many 14-18 hour days over the course of the past 2 weeks to get this show running, and I am obviously a bit exhausted mentally and physically from that experience. I am however running board op for this show for the next 4 or 5 weeks so I will be working the show at nights and in the day I will be building the set for the next show, Maple and Vine. While i still love what I do, wow, its tiring! I can most certainly say to anyone who is interested in doing tech work for theatre that if you don't absolutely love it and want to do it forever no matter what the cost... don't do it! I can safely say that this past 2 weeks has cemented the fact that I do absolutely love tech theatre, and that, is awesome.

My life has many positive and negative aspects right now. I would love to put this all in perspective for you guys. Some ups and downs of my stay here so far....
UPS:
I am doing theatre, and this theatre is awesome
I am living with Nick Kemner and Josh Mckee
I own a car
My boss the hella awesome
I am doing God's work and feel Him with me all the time (religious vocation ftw)
My new computer kicks ass
I get to cook my own food (which i love to do)
Denver is a super cool city
I have a bar I can call "mine"

DOWNS:
I miss a lot of friends from Spokane and from home (you know who you are homies!)
I miss my family.. a lot
I work so much I don't get much chance to get out and do other stuff (hence the next point)
I have yet to meet a single woman (as in, woman without a man already)  that I like
My time here is flying bye and I dont want it to end
I am constantly afraid that my car will stop working
College debt comes in next month... yikes!
I miss my bible study group
My roommates are playing halo 4... and I dont have time to get it yet
I have a bar I can call "mine"

Thats just a few. Anyway, life keeps trucking along for me, and I hope it is treating you all well.All my friends and family in other places...  I miss you all, and send all my love and prayers.