I'll Be Coming Home Just to Be Alone

The past few days have been very busy and emotionally taxing. My Granddad died about a week ago, and I had the rosary service, the funeral mass, and the burial to go to. All of these things were quite a ways from my house, so motion sickness has been rampant in my body for the past couple days. While I selfishly mourn for my own loss at the death of my Granddad, I cant help but be happy for the life he lived, and the glorious place where he is now. My only regret is not spending more time with him, which, is partially my fault. there is too much family drama to get into on a blog, but my family did not see my Grandma and Granddad enough for the past... 10-15 years. I cried today at the Veterans Cemetery where he was buried. The military funeral, gun salute, and taps were just a bit too much for me. Shortly after the burial I drove home, and quickly packed and left for my flight back to Spokane. On the way, I found myself considering Spokane my "home" and not my place of birth and childhood. Most of the things (besides my parents) that mean something to me are in Spokane. My job, my friends, my school, and most of my important memories to define me. My family took me to the airport, and I was in a hurry to leave.  I am afraid that my rush to leave may have come across as anger at them, which is not the case. While my family did annoy me greatly these past few months, I am most certainly not upset at them in any way. I am so glad that I am here now, and while being in my hometown was nice, I was going a little crazy of loneliness. I start work on Monday, and hope to see many friends soon. I just feel more appreciated, understood, and loved here than anywhere else. I can tell that this is where I belong right now. The sad part is, the one person I want to see is not here right now, so in a way, I am still alone. I look forward to their arrival to Spokane with much anticipation. 

My new house is pretty cool. Most of the guys living here I have met before at  one time or another. This is my first time living off campus so it is a bit new for me. My room is all set up, and I am enjoying the independence being here has already brought. I suppose this will be one of those "growing up" experiences that everyone is supposed to have in their college days.